I miss who?

 How can I miss someone who doesn't exist?

Why am I grieving the loss of potential?

What does this say of the quality of my hope?

Why am I am burdened with the love of a mother

of a child who is not born? 

I love you so much,

I have not met you

your father left me

I broke his heart

I broke my heart

I imagine if you would have been as sensitive as your father,

and if I would have broken your heart as I did his

tell him I am sorry

and that I love him

I love you

you don't exist